I had a great blog schedule going. Then the identity crisis hit.
I hate it when I think too much and the world seems to fall apart. But, at the same time, it’s also necessary to grow into a better person. I just kinda wish I had more of my life together.
It seems like I have my life together; I have a good job, my own vehicle, and I’m not in debt…. so I guess I’m doing pretty good for a 20-year-old in this economy. But sometimes that job feels like a dead end. Which is stupid, ’cause I’m 20 and I have most of my life ahead of me.
Maybe I’m too much of an old soul. I’m trying to break myself out of it, ’cause I don’t want to look back in 10 or 20 years and realize I wasted my youth working myself to death and worrying about stupid things. Thankfully, my life is together enough that I’ve never really had to worry about bills or where my next meal is coming from. I just want to find something I can enjoy and be passionate about.
I think I spent so much of my school years isolating myself and working toward finishing school that I forgot to be a kid. So now I’m a young adult trying to figure out how to be young and not let the adulting consume me. I’ll probably figure it out in about a decade or two.